I was praying she would just make it til after our honeymoon and now here we are 2 1/2 months after our wedding and yesterday she finally left our world to pass over into the arms of our God.
My daughter with Grandma a few halloweens ago
Me and my sister with Grandma when I was about 2 or 3 years old
These last few days were the hardest on our family. Last Saturday I cooked her the very last meal she would ever eat - spaghetti and garlic bread - a favorite of hers. She never ate this past week and could not even drink - not even water. Her body had filled with so much fluid from the heart and lung disease that she was totally bloated. My mother could barely hold her hand because the touch would hurt her or open her skin.
Me and my Grandma and Grandpa
She would really only sleep but she couldn't even do that well because she was struggling to breathe from coughing and gurgling the fluid in her lungs. We have been praying for weeks for God to just take her home...we would say that we can't understand why she just won't let go and be at peace. And Friday night was the worst for me. My mother took this past week off of work as they knew the end was very close and she wanted to be there with her sister. My mom called me Friday and updated me on her condition...I came home and sobbed and told Mr Fix It that I just didn't want her to suffer anymore.
Yesterday morning, my mother called to tell me she slipped away and stopped breathing with my mother there in the room. I have been in tears and laughter throughout this past day. And there are many more tears to come...she was the matriarch of a large family...5 children, 10 grandchildren (and their spouses) and many great grandchildren. She even had a great great granddaughter (you'll see her pic in a future recap). She lived a full life...she loved and cared for her family and we loved her like no other. She was like a second mother to me...helped my parents raise me...babysat me.
I was so blessed to know her and love her and be loved by her. I cannot wait to see her again one day and I am so grateful that she is at rest and no longer in pain and an ailing body. This whole process has made me ponder life, death and the frailty of our bodies...to watch life go from birth through death in old age is not really a beautiful thing to me as some say. I personally believe it is a sad thing, but it makes me so grateful for health and for life and for relationships. An aging frail body going through the dying process only reminds me that this life is not all we were intended for...there is something more beautiful, peaceful, healthy and whole waiting for us. And the life I will live with my grandmother there reminds me to be hopeful and to fondly cherish the memories and love she leaves with us all.
Love you Grandma!
21 comments:
So sorry for your loss Stacey. Sounds like your grandma had a beautiful life. At least she is at peace now. Thinking about you and your family.
I am so sorry, Stacey. As difficult as this time is, I’m glad you can take comfort in the fact that she is at peace now and no longer suffering. May God bless you and your family, and welcome your grandmother with love and open arms.
Please accept my sincerest condolences. I will definitely say a prayer for you and your family. As hard as it may be, we thank God that he's ended her suffering and taken her home. (Hugs)
I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. Im sorry she wasnt able to make it to your wedding but im glad she was still with you on your big day. I know during my planning and my day i was thinking about my grandma and grandpa who are with GOD and it was very hard not to have them with me. God bless your family.
I'm so sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. These pictures warmed my heart.. hope you're doing ok and leaning on your husband and family during this hard time.
so sorry for your loss. i hope your memories of the good times will keep her alive for years to come. sending love to you and your family.
i'm sorry for your loss - i know it's a cliche but i'm glad she lives on in your memories.
So sorry to hear this; glad she is at peace.
Thinking of you and your family.
so sorry for your loss! hope that you and your family are doing okay.
So sorry to hear this, my thoughts are with you and your family.
Hugs. What a wonderful life she must have had. I so hope I live long enough to have a great great granddaughter!
Hugs and prayers for you and your family dear.
Wow you truely have been through a lot. It sounds like she was in a lot if pain at the end and now she is in a better place free of suffering. I will continue to pray for you and your family through this difficult time. God Bless
I'm so sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you and your family. Sending lots of love from the other coast.
I am so sorry to hear about your grandma. It seems that she lived a very blessed and LOVE-filled life... I am glad you were able to have her for so long. Prayers are with you and your family.
I'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother. It sounds like she lived a very long, happy life and that you have many happy memories together.
I'm really sorry, Stacey. My thoughts are with you.
I'm so sorry, Stacey. My thoughts are with you and your family.
*hugs* sorry to hear about your loss. :( but I am glad that she lived such a long and full life, and that you and your family have so many memories of her to cherish until you meet again someday.
Sorry to hear about your grandma. I am glad to hear that she didn't pass before your wedding. Wow a great great grandchild! That is awesome!
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